Bhagavati Suvarna Hingmire

|| Shree ||

Gurur Brahma Gurur Vishnu Gururdevo Maheshvarah|
Gurursakshat Parabraham Tasmai Shri Guruve Namah ||

I bow to the lotus feet of my most respected venerable Sadguru Shree Dadashree with great respect and devotion!

Surrendering myself at the Divine Feet of my Sadguru

- Suvarna

|| Shree ||

“Grace Alone and states of my mind.”

  “If Ishwar (Paramatma)[God] meets you, what will you ask for?”-----: I was utterly surprised to hear this question being asked in a very pure and clear loud voice! I had absolutely never imagined that such a question will be asked, but he had expected an answer! I asked him “How can Ishwar (Paramatma) [God] meet me?” 

He replied, “But, if he really meets you, then?”

        Shree Mohan Jadhav is a disciple of the Supreme spiritual master and the Vaishvanar [explanation of Vaishvanar] incarnation, residing at Akkalkot, Param Sadguru Shree Gajanan Maharajshree. I lovingly address Shree Mohan Jadhav as Dadashree. He asked me this question. I was unable to understand his intent in his asking this question. 

I started performing Agnihotra as per his guidance. Later on Dadashree said,

 “When you started Agnihotra, you have received the ‘Ahetu Krupa’ that is unintentional ‘Grace’ the divine blessing!!”

       He visited my house exactly one month and thirteen days, i.e. Thursday, 11th March 2004, on Rangpanchmee day [Holy festival], after I started performing Agnihotra. He arrived at my house at 10.30 a.m. in the morning. As usual during my daily worship at seven o’clock in the morning, I saw Shree Shreepad Shreevallabh [who is he?] seated gracefully occupying the entire temple instead of the Deities! When Shree Dadashree arrived at 10-30 AM. I said to him, “you did arrive in my house at seven o’clock this morning! …………

…(Write D’s reaction or what he said)…..

After this incident, he came to my house on the next Thursday at eight o’clock in the morning without my invitation. He sat in the temple and asked me to sit before him.

Then he started talking.

 “Shree Swami Samarth has sent me to you. Your life is not to live and experience the mundane (worldly life) life”.  

I was absolutely unable to understand why he was telling me all that! Then he initiated me with ‘Mantra Abhishek’. (That is showered me with water chanting several Mantras) and gave me The ‘Mantra’ and instructed me to repeat it, utter it as per his instructions! He also instructed me how to maintain the posture and the disciplines. This entire event was beyond my understanding and comprehension.

I read only in the books about the great significance and importance of the sudden and unexpected visit of the Sadguru at the disciple’s residence and grant the initiation!

       After that he said to me,

“Always remember the most honorable and highly Supreme spiritual Master; Param Sadguru Shree Gajanan Maharajshree! The knowledge that is granted in dreams is the great and most highly supreme knowledge. We have given you the most sacred ‘Mantra’ that has been chanted and worshipped by Shree Swami Samarth and the great sage Agasty”!  

After some days, the most revered Param Sadguru Maharaj Shree also gave me his ‘Darshan.’(Appeared in person). He Said in Hindi

“Betee! Tum bade bhagyashalee ho”.

 Meaning ‘My dear daughter you are very fortunate’.      

Dadashree said to me,

“The greatest power in the universe is with you. The entire lineage of the spiritual Masters [Guru-parampara] exists in your house. Our relationship of the Guru and disciple has been continuously existing  from birth after birth [Life after Life]. We have given you unbroken (whole), imperishable (permanent), “Yogkshemam Vahamyaham” – “We will take care of all your life!” This is the assurance of that Parabramha supreme Great-Power!”    

Dadashree lives in America. Though the Sadguru may be far away from the disciple, the physical distance makes no difference. The Grace of the spiritual Master bestows the knowledge. The disciple has to observe the disciplines with determination, with full devotion, faith, perseverance, patience and courage. The disciple has to be steadfast. All these are essential in this path. One may have to go through rigorous tests. There could be gold in the dirt, yet to extract that gold the purification process by fire cannot be avoided. The disciple is guided and protected on this path so that he may not deviate or fall. 

He says,

“The fall does not occur when on the seventh step. The path towards the greatest supreme Truth becomes easy with Grace, yet this path is very difficult, very rigorous. This is the war-field for great warriors!

       Once it is achieved, once it is realized, nothing remains to be known or realized. That is the Omniscient state. You will see the majesty, the grandeur of this yoga, which cannot be compared to anything! It is unparallel! Even the universal sovereignty (monarchy over the earth) is insignificant.  The one who attains this great majesty, this richness, becomes God only! She becomes the Goddess (Bhagavatee), the greatest the supreme truth is nothing other than this! There is no awareness of the ‘I’ there! That is the supreme Truth. The knowledge of ‘Self’ is the Swaroop-yoga – the state of Consciousness or identity with Brahma! That self-knowledge is never-ending, eternal of all eternals, without life and death, extremely pure, spotless and self-realizing [Swa-Swasanvedya] you are perfect now. Now there is all oneness. Only a thin, transparent curtain has been kept –as if it is there or it is not there.”  

Shri Dadashree has taken me on this path that leads to the highest truth by holding my hand (by guiding me every step of the way) very assuredly. He himself did all the Yogic-Kriyas in the beginning of meditation only. Since the grace of my Sadguru was showered, this grace set to work with loving grace continuously blooming in the inner core of my heart!

       Dadashree gave a valuable suggestion. He suggested,

“Write down your experiences maintains a diary. Your experiences could be a guideline to all spiritual aspirants (Dashikis). You will not explain this science by contained in the books. You will speak through your personal experiences. You may speak about it from the imperceptible personal experiences. It is the Truth. It is genuine and perfect. All science can be tested with these experiences!”

I have made spontaneous notes as the experiences or revelations occurred. The experience of attaining of the pitcher of Divine Nectar (Amrut Kumbha), or the nectar of knowledge granted to me and the visions (the darshan), of the vast ocean of the Divine and dazzling light shown to me were granted to me by my most reveres Sadguru Dadashree. All that I have experienced during my meditations I have promptly recorded in this diary.

As the experiences unfolded I have made spontaneous notes. About the attainment of the pitcher of Divine Nectar from my most revered Sadguru Dadashree or the knowledge granted to me as also the visions (darshan) of the vast ocean of blinding dazzling Divine light were revealed to me upon conclusion of my meditation. These experiences are recorded as accurately as I could. There was hardly any difference in the meditative and the awakened state and so I have recorded in my daily notes.

Other than this, there is nothing special, nothing significant in my life that is worth to be written until I met Shree Dadashree. At present too there is nothing much special about me. I know “I do not exist! My appearance, my form is the true existence of the grace of my loving Sadguru Shree Dadashree. Therefore, though I wrote all this, the real inspiration came from my Dadashree only!

I offer this great treasure of knowledge, which I received, from him at his auspicious lotus feet with deep gratitude and love! 

Surrendering myself at the divine feet of my Sadguru

Suvarna

Introduction

I was born on Datta Poornima day. We are six brothers and sisters I am the second sibling to my parents.  My father Shri Ganappa Prasadee is a businessman. My mother’s name was Sou. Pramila. My parents were very kind gregarious and very helpful. In the beautiful scenic village at Sasolee in Konkan we had a big house with fairly large yard in front and back. My sisters and I, we loved gardening and flowers. Our childhood was full of play, laughter and joy. We lived very free of all worries. We had several cousins also in the family. My grandparents that are parents of my mother passed away at my mother’s early age. We children do not remember having seen them. However, my mother used to tell us many loving stories about them. My mother’s parents were well to do. Both these grand parents were god-fearing and great devotees. My grandfather would observe several penances. During his fasting period, he would not eat or drink or swallow even a swallow. Severe austerities typical even amongst dedicated Muslims during Ramajan. Quite often he would take up religious pilgrimages. He would visit Kashi (Benaras) every year. He was gifted with intuition and could foretell future happenings. My mother too had developed intuition and would receive messages through significant dreams.

We had to move from little village Sasolee in Konkan to Gadhinglaj when I was about seven or eight years old, There my father started an oil mill and prospered through his diligent hard work. He would teach us Bhagavat Gita and he lived those great principles. His teachings and upbringing had a great impact on my mind.  We all children received several commendations as well-behaved and cultured students.

I was always devoted to God since my childhood. Mrs.Tai Gaitonde was a close neighbor and a very pious and devoted lady. She would chant many scriptures, mantras and prayers such as Shivastuti, starting early morning and all through out the day. I remember how lovingly she would sing a prayer to Lord Dattatreya with all her heart. I still remember her singing “Dhanya Dhanya  ho pradakshina Sadgururayachi” This particular hymn had words such as “Sadgururaya”.

The word Sadgururaya deeply moved me since my childhood. As a result when my Sadguru showered his divine grace on me, the word Sadgururaya (Lord Sadguru) that was etched in my heart since early years. This word became real and so was written in my notebook with immense love and spontaneous heartfelt devotion. Such was the great influence of Mrs. Tai Gaikonde since early on. I experienced this quite often in the later years of my life too. So!

I grew up in such auspicious environment. Mrs. Tai Gaikonde used to read to us children many religious scriptures such as Pandava Puranana and would explain to us the significant meanings every day.  During those days I read another holy scripture “Kashi Khanda” several times. My mother too was a very holy lady and observed several austerities. She would offer 1008 bilva leaves to Lord Shiva during the holy month of Shravana. We all children too individually did similar worship. We children used to visit 21 Lord Shiva temples and would perform elaborate Shiva worship.

When I was of marriageable age, several proposals started coming in. My mother used to chide me and would advise me not to get too involved into spirituality or worship. Perhaps the would be in-laws may think differently.

Later, I got married. My husband and his father had a house at Sanglee. My husband had a job in Pune, so we settled in Pune. He was an engineer and well employed with Kirloskar Cummins. Soon thereafter he started his own industry making patterns for other engineering companies. We have a son Ajay and a daughter Rashmi.  By God’s grace my husband’s business prospered very well. We acquired a larger location at Hadapasar and moved our factory there. The factory is equipped with latest automatic equipment. Our son Ajay too is an engineer and is actively involved in the business.  The business prospered quite rapidly. Thus my entire life has been spent in rich comfortable environment. My husband, our children and I are very industrious by nature. My husband did all that he possibly could to provide us of all comforts. I have enjoyed and experienced all material pleasures such as a beautiful bungalow, flat, cars etc.

            We had wonderful neighbors. We served the community through several projects for over 20 years through Rotary club. It was never an easy sailing. When operating a growing business and raising a family, it is never an easy sailing. We too had our trials and tribulations.
I did many ‘Parayanas’ [planned readings] of the Holy Scriptures such as Navanath Gajanan Vijay etc. I used to get some experiences after performing the Parayana. Then I started the Japa (chanting) also continuously. I used to get up at 3.30 A.M. or 4 A.M. and start my Japa. When doing so for some time, the rosary would fall out of my hands. A light was seen in front of my eyes. I used to get the visions even when asleep.
It was quite puzzling to me. I used to feel, “why does this happen to me?” I had never gone to any temple. I had no Guru to guide me. I never knew any authoritative person in this field.  I met Shri Harikaka (A saintly person) of Halkarni once or twice in my childhood. But I was too young to understand any spiritual subjects (explanations). I did my worship with full concentration and great devotion. I was very particular about the cleanliness of the house. I used to maintain the cleanliness and purity perfectly well. All what I did, I did in my house only. I never went outside anywhere.
            In this manner, my life was very simple typical of any ordinary person. I lived my life as a good housewife. By nature I am very ambitious. I have tremendous patience. I had a great liking for flowers and decorations. I used to stitch beautiful fancy dresses (and blouses) for my daughter when she was small. I loved embroidery.
            Our son Ajay and daughter Rashmi got married. My daughter-in-law Anushka entered in our life. They both have a daughter. Her name is Eisha. My daughter and son-in-law Vijay live in Mumbai. They have a son. His name is Ruhaan. In short, my life was like any other common human being.
            But, we have absolutely no idea about any change or a sudden event that may occur in our lives. One cannot predict when, how and what will happen in life. I never imagined that I will get the grace, blessings of Sadguru and will have an opportunity to see, to experience the supreme Truth. Yet, yes! This wonderful uncommon and remarkable experience did happen. The divine experiences are unfolding in my life now as I write! Shree Dadashree had showered his infinite grace on me. I received profound love from him. The nature of my writing is the imperceptible experiences that I have received in meditation while treading on the spiritual path that leads to revelation of the greatest Truth! I did not think and write. What I wrote are facts as accurate as I possibly could yet in a nutshell. I could write only briefly as the actual revelations were impossible capture in words.
 
These experiences were numerous. Experiences were such as divine visions, apparition (Darshans), seeing the infinite ocean of light, the divine yogic kriyas (powerful involuntary movements) that would happen during meditation. The most powerful Kumbhak, Pranayam, Kriyas, rhythm (laya), hundreds of divine Mudras, the sound and divine light, All these were unfolded one after another from one to the next amongst so many! Since, all these experiences are interrelated, I humbly request the readers to pay more attention and understand the significance of these wonderful experiences and revelations!
            “That which I gained by the grace of Sadguru is a rapid scintillation” (sparkling and rapid resuscitation). When writing this, there could be several repetitions and this is unavoidable. The spiritual aspirant (Sadhaka) or the reader may keep this in mind. Should one read with an attitude to learn, he/she will find a treasure of tremendous learning in it. I pray, “With loving heart may you gather all that may help or benefit you.

Meeting of Sadguru;

Unexpected meeting with the Sadguru; and he showering  unconditional Grace;

             In December 2003, I received a telephone call from my niece, Mrs. Priya Mangire, a resident of USA. She said, “ Shree Mohan Jadhav Dada lives in America. He has now come to India and is in Pune. You go and meet Shree Jadhav dada”. I went to meet Shree Jadhav dada as per her suggestion. I mentioned about Priya as a reference. He said,

“You start ‘Agnihotra’. Observe your experiences during the next 8 to 10 days. At present, I am going on a tour for 8 to 10 days. When I will return, I will call you.”

He then gave me two contact numbers to get the information about Agnihotra and the material I needed. However I did not get to talk to these two people.           

Within 8 to 10 days, I received a telephone call from Shree Jadhav dada. He asked me,

“Have you started Agnihotra”? I replied, “No!” He said, “The Purnabrahma [The Supreme Power] is showing you the path of your Salvation. Try to follow it! Do it!”

One of my friends used to do Agnihotra. I enquired about the availability of the needed supplies. In the meantime, during the month of February I mentioned to my husband, “Let us bring the Agnihotra pot and at least start performing it”. He agreed. We brought all the material on 4th February and started performing Agnihotra on 5th February 2004. 

We did Agnihotra regularly. To my surprise, I saw a bone skull near the pot after performing Agnihotra! Next day I saw a white Ganapatee near the pot. There were many thoughts that were spinning in my head for three days. They all stopped on the fourth day and I was able to sleep peacefully.

            Again I received a phone call from Priya about arrival of Shree Jadhav dada in Pune. She asked me to invite him at our home. I met him and informed him about my experiences after performing Agnihotra. I also told him about my keen desire to invite him at our house. He agreed to come the next day. This time Dada spoke to me for a long time. He said,

“You have done many virtuous and meritorious deeds in your past life. Do not get yourself tangled up and get caught in the mundane matters of life. now! See, that the Holy word of God is with every breath of your life till the end. Perform every action with devotion to God and surrender to Him!”

There after I came home.

11.3.2004

            On Thursday March 11, at 7 AM I sat in front of the altar (in our prayer room) for my daily worship.  I started the worship. I could not see the deities in the alter. I was surprised to see the full figure of Shreepad Shreevallabha live and in person, clad in saffron clothes and holding a ‘Kamandaloo’ pot (a begging bowl) in his hand. I could not see any thing else in the altar. Yet I completed my worship and prayers. My husband came home along with Shree Dada. I poured water on his feet and welcomed him inside our house. He performed Shree Rudra and Shree Sukta yajnya. He instructed all of us to join him with our respective Agnihotra pot to perform the Yajnya.

I spoke to him a little later. Though there was no formal introduction before this event. Yet I asked him, “Will it be possible for me to go on pilgrimages and visit the holy places?” he replied immediately,

 “All holy places are residing, existing in you only!”

He asked me to do the Swahakar of Mahamruttunjaya. Then he left. This is how Agnihotra started in our house.

When Shree Dada visited my house my spiritual journey of my life started! I started getting various divine experiences such as visions of the “Divine and apparitions from this auspicious day forward.

            I am used to sleep for some time in the afternoon. When sleeping, I saw Shree Swami Samarth standing in the thick descending limbs of a banyan tree. When I closed my eyes, I saw the golden light and the most beautiful and delicate lotus feet! The toes of these feet were shining with a diamond like radiance.

14.3.2004

            I woke up from the afternoon nap in a normal manner. I realized that my mind was full of peace. For the first time I was feeling a deep sense of peace and well-being.

15.3.2004

            I performed my regular Japa and sat quietly with eyes closed. At this time I felt a fountain was rising high from my forehead!

16.3.2004

When I closed my eyes, I felt waves of water were raising high on my forehead. I also saw Shri Nrusinha Saraswaty in white robe.

17.3.2004

            After performing the Mruttunjaya Swahakar I had a sensation of circular movements of light around my head and around my face. Similarly, I felt that something was coming out and rising high from my head and face!!

            While performing the Mruttunjaya Swahakar I felt that I did not exist at all!  Shree Jadhav Dada was in the deepest inner core of my heart. I was not at all conscious or aware of my own existence. Just four days before he had said to me,

“I am always (existing, staying) accompanying you.” 

I just nodded at that time. But, today morning I truly experienced his real existence in the deep core of my heart. I was simply very happy. Today I informed Shree Jadhav dada about the experiences that I had had in the past when doing the ‘Japa’. He sat quietly with closed eyes and told me later on,

“We saw your previous births, your previous lives. Your present birth, your life is for Sadhana-the spiritual practices!!”

            Then he asked me a question.

“If Ishwar (Paramatma) meets you, what would you ask for?”

I was unable able to think of a reply to his question. I never imagined that such a question would be asked. I asked him, “How can Ishwar (Paramatma) meet  me?” Yet he repeated the same question.

“Even then: if He really meets you? Then?”

I replied, “Something good should happen!” He explained,

“Does that mean, you want money and fame!”

            I replied, “I should receive something so significant in my life that it would give a sense of completion and total fulfillment! It should be meaningful!” then I took his leave and returned home. He telephoned at 7 p.m. in the evening.

“I will come to your house tomorrow. Please come and  get  me!”

18.3.2004

            My husband arrived at 8.30 AM, along with Shree Jadhavdada to our house. He came and sat in the hall. He sat for barely two minutes and suddenly got up. He went to the altar (inside the prayer room). I followed him. He asked (told) me to get a wooden seat. I gave him a wooden seat. He sat on it and told me to sit in front of him. I sat according to his instruction. He started talking in a deep calm voice.

“Your virtuous merits (Punyaee) since many lives are to fructify today. The Parabramha, The supreme power, Shree Swamy  Samarth commanded me; hence I have come to you. You are greatly fortunate. The purpose of your life is rising on spirituality. There are many noble works (Karya Sadhana). Your birth in this life is for that! Try to make it perfect and meaningful. All mundane Kriyas (actions) will decrease gradually and you will make progress. You will realize and understand all this very shortly. While performing the spiritual practices, remember the assurances of Shree Swamy. “Do not be afraid. I am with you ([I am protecting you)”.

18.3.2004

            Then he applied the sacred rice grains with red Kumkum on my forehead and while chanting the mantras as a blessing, gave me an ‘Abhishek’ (a shower sprinkling water with several mantras) and gave me the Initiation. After this sacred act, he instructed me on the posture, breathing techniques and showed me how to do it. He then spoke these valuable words, 

“You have the sacred Mantra which is the ‘Tarak Brahmha’ (The very infinite Being and support of all that there is). You will make rapid progress from now onwards until you reach your destination, your goal with a high flight! The Supreme Power, the Parabrahma himself will take care of you and guide you during yoga Sadhana (spiritual practices). Rise early in the morning before the dawn and start your meditation. Try to meditate as much as you can. Meditate more. As you will constantly continue the Sadhana, and meditations, Sadguru will guide you every step of the way. Everything will happen automatically on it’s own!

            There is never a single moment when Shree Swamy is not with you. You will come to know very soon about who we are (you will understand who I am)”.

I was listening to his words with rapt attention and was dazed. I was really stunned! My most respected, extremely venerable Sadgururaya, I had only read it in the books so far that, the ‘Krupa’ (Divine Grace) of the Sadguru is granted only when the aspirant is virtuous and deserving. The Sadguru then comes to us on his/her own. Shree Sadguru has to say and declare that the aspirant, the devotee belongs to him. He is the ultimate of Sadguru!!

18.3.2004

            Oh God! This was the most unexpected and surprising event that has happened in my life! It is my greatest fortune to receive such blessings, the grace of Sadguru without any efforts on my part.  It all happened so easily and so naturally! I am inexperienced and ignorant about this yet such supreme grace has been showered so unexpectedly! I did not make any special efforts for it. I did nothing.

            It is truly the greatest fortune of my life. Could it be that though my Dear Sadgururaya, you live in America, you come here just to grant your grace and shower all your blessings on me?

            This is the most fortunate, the most glorious day of my life! This great fortune walked to my house on it's own. For this blessing, people try their best and struggle all their life!

Oh God! What else could I ask for? Which demand should I make? I do not ask for anything else except a genuine prayer that sprang from my heart. “Stay constantly in the deep core of my heart, my mind”! I have received the highest, the greatest fortune, which is so rare and invaluable in the universe. I pray that it may stay permanent and unbroken forever!

            I did my worships and did Parayanas (Continuous reading of the religious books) that’s all. When prostrating before God or praying to him I never asked for anything ever in my life. I worshiped our family Goddess Shree Shakambharee Banshankaree with devotion by mentally. I used to bow down and pray with a request, “Oh God, May you give your blessings to all! Give those good thoughts and good intellect.

I kept on performing the good deeds for all my relatives as per the instruction and motivation of God with deep sincerity. Everything was done in my mind only! I never tried to make an outward show or exhibition of my devotion or worship! That’s all!           

19.3.2004

            I constantly kept on communicating and keeping in contact with my Sadguru by phone. I always felt like listening to his words during the telephone conversation.

20.3.2004

            I saw the idol of Lord Dattatreya in a rapid glance today!

            I felt lightness in my hands and body during meditation. The chanting was happening naturally, easily and continuously even during the entire day. It was happened so naturally and automatically that I felt it easier than breathing! All this happened due to the grace of my Sadguru only!

25.3.2004

            A light was seen coming from both the eyebrows.  A conch was also seen during the meditation.

26.3.2004

            When the Agnihotra was completed, I saw in front of me a holy person with loose hair long on shoulders in a seated posture with legs crossed. I could clearly see the crescent moon on his head. The smile on my face lasted during meditation and for the rest of the day.

28.3.2004

            When performing morning Agnihotra, I had a very clear and distinct darshan (Vision) of Lord ShivShankar. He was seen adorned with garlands of Rudraksha -beads around his arms, the trident in the hand, and a moon on the head. His lotus eyes were half-open and his beautiful bluish face was seen very clearly! There were happy vibrations all over in my body!!

29.3.2004

            As I concentrated my sight at the tip of my nose, I felt tremendous strength in my waist and back!

30.3.2004

            During meditation the tip of my tongue was folding back towards my throat. Both palms of my hands that were placed on my thighs came automatically to the stomach as one upon another. Suddenly I sat very straight erect. I felt I had become very tall. Although I my eyes were closed, I did not feel any stretching tension on my eyes. Sadgururaya, I felt a feeling of real peace and a different kind of experience.

1.4.2004

            I woke up late in the past two days. I was feeling guilty that I missed morning Agnihotra. I also felt, “How can I manage to do everything?” My mind was very restless during the entire day. When I was in deep sleep, Suddenly Shree Datta Maharaj came close to me and stayed near me. I looked at the watch. It was 4.30 A.M. early morning. In the morning when I started my daily worship, I saw Shree Datta Maharaj again in the alter.

            I was trying to contact Shree Sadgururaya on phone many times; I was only listening to his words. He was saying,

“Be assured that nothing will go wrong during the spiritual practices. Shree Swamy, himself will take care. Shree Swamy has spread a velvet carpet ahead of you. So, do not worry. Feel free of any worry. There will be no physical or mental difficulty during your Sadhana”.  Shree Sadguru further said, “We are holding your hand just as a mother would hold the hand of her child. You, the child may leave the hand but when the mother is holding she will not leave it!!”

2.4.2004

            I woke up early morning, did Agnihotra and started meditating. The muscles of my heart were moving from left to the right side completely in a rhythmic manner. The Namsmaran (chanting of the Mantra) was going on effortlessly. It was going on in a very slow manner. The palm of the left hand and the palm of the right hand come automatically near the stomach. The whole body became calm and quite. The body was relaxed! I felt as if I had a new body! A peaceful state of mind occurred. The chanting of the mantra continued all the time, even while reading or talking. I felt that I should do nothing else but to sit quietly. I felt I have great strength in my waist and back during the last four days during meditation.

I slept in the afternoon. When I closed my eyes, I saw Shree Dattaguru. After ten minutes I felt my body light as a feather. Again I saw someone, clad in white clothes, standing before me. But, I could not recognize who that person was. When sleeping at night I closed my eyes and I saw Shri. Datta Maharaj! I felt much exited with a thought that what should I do now?

3.4.2004

            After reciting the name (mantra), the rays of light were seen on my forehead and face. The light started moving quickly and spreading as well! The hands that were on my thighs were lifted up automatically and were folded together like a Namaskar (joined palms), The Japa happened for a moment from the deep center of my heart. I felt so nice and wonderful at this time. My entire body became very light like a feather. I could not get that experience again despite making deliberate efforts. While doing the ‘Mruttunjaya Japa’ I felt that ShivShankar is in my inner mind. I was unaware of my own existence!

            Shree Sadgururaya’s help is constantly there. I listen to his voice,

“Suvarna, I am here only!” 

His laughter and a call to assure me, giving me confidence are also heard quite often.

When I slept in the afternoon, my whole body became very light like a feather. Shree Swamy Samarth was seen sitting in a crossed legged posture. A very bright and dazzling light was seen coming from his two eyebrows! That dazzling light was quickly spreading before my eyes. Finally, I got up. My body was completely relaxed. A thought came to my mind, “What should I do now?” A smile rose on my face and I started laughing from the depth of my stomach!

4.4.2004

            Tremendous heat was generated in my body, as I was absorbed in meditation at dawn! I saw my Sadguru. He was wearing white clothes and Rudraksha.

3.4.2004  

            I awoke at 12 o’clock at night. I closed my eyes again. Then I saw a very soft, tender hand coming close to my heart. I then saw Shree Swamy. A divine glorious light was coming out of his body. That light started being absorbed in my eyes and face! Then it spread all over my body. Same thing started happening even when I slept in any position. Then I straightened my hands and legs and slept. I started the Namjap (Mantra) later on. My entire body became lustrous and started shining from my head to feet. The palms of my hands were opened up completely. Even my feet were straight. I felt I did not exist. I have no body at all! There was only the bright light of the size of my body! I saw this vision from 12 to 12.45 A.M. at night. One hand came close to my heart and two lotus feet were seen. I was remembering my Sadguru while looking at my body, dazzling full of light. Each and every part became splendorous and shining brightly. I was seeing it very clearly as if seeing it through a subtle clean, clear glass.

4.4.2004

            I paid obeisance to God and closed my eyes at 12 P.M. First a black colored statue of stones was seen. It was adorned with white clothes. Later the image (statue) of Shree Pandurang adorned with rich yellow colored cloth and ornaments appeared. The blue colored Balkrishna was also seen crawling from his lotus feet in a loving manner. At the same time I saw the temple of Pandharpur behind Lord Pandurang.

When I slept in the afternoon at 1.30 PM I had the Darshan of Shree Gorakshanath clad in his typical saffron colored dress and garlands of Rudraksha around his neck.